1. |
Signal
02:17
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i just can't
i can't give up on you
i don't understand
what i'm supposed to do
when i don't wanna be
where i shouldn't go
yet i tell myself
i told you so
now all i see
is harsh and green
and all their smiles
bare their teeth
i can hear them coming now
it's growing twice as loud
when the light
flashes once or twice
to signal you're alive
but i can't hear it
and i just can't
i can't convince myself
that i'm better off
doing something else
when i don't wanna be
anywhere but here
still stuck in place
from the last year
now all i see
are haunted dreams
staring back
back at me
i can feel them coming now
it's best not to make a sound
when the light
flashes once or twice
to signal you're alive
but i can't hear it
the sound
comes from up and down
it's me they wrap around
but i can't see it
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2. |
Updownstairs
02:47
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woke up with that feeling in my head
the one that runs up
down stairs from floor to ceiling
when i long to be appealing
i'm a wreck
there's a mess underneath
all the while concentrating on the moment
never straying from the moment
there's a beach
sunlight washes over me
and when i wake up
i'm back where i'm beginning
forgetting and forgiving
there's a piece of me
softly
falling asleep
and it was calling
clawing
right under my feet
standing with one foot outside the door
i hope i don't overstay my latest welcome
you see, times like these are seldom
any more
and i might forget to breathe
it's time i come clean
and rearrange the weather
stormy days are never better
without reprieve
i do my best not to drown
every day getting harder treading water
when my lungs keep getting smaller
it surrounds my eyes
disguised
with broken sight
and you can transcribe
tonight
there's no stars in this sky
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3. |
Spin
02:17
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there is nothing left to say
my words repeat against the fall anyway
spin around
spin around
spin around like you wanna
spin around just like you do inside my head
now that i don't know all that i need to know
now that i don't know all that i have to know
now that i don't know all that i want to know
now that i don't know
i'm not crossing over
i'll see no other side
where i'll be going
it's been too long
it's too far away
and i don't want to
i don't want to move too close
cuz i can't let you drown again
underneath the weight of having to pretend
it's something you need
all the while grinding your teeth
i'll go down and around again
i'll go down and around again
i'll go down and around again
i'll go down
cuz i've been here before
the paths cross and disconnect
it's all so formal
where are we now?
where are we now?
i'm lost at sea with no hope to be found
and i'm going down
going down
going down
going down
spin around
spin around
spin around
spin around
spin around
spin around
spin around
spin around
again
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4. |
Ghosts
01:31
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every shadow has a face 'round here
and every word sounds wrong and insincere
i crossed the bridge for the last time
"where are your thoughts?"
and "where were you last night?"
i can't help feeling like i should be asleep
my feet have been dragging for this whole week
i've been seeing your face in all of my dreams
and all of my ghosts are catching up to me
if you don't mind
i won't say a word tonight
i've been wondering for some time
if you even want me in your life
and no matter how hard i try
i will always fall behind
in my isolated decline
i can't help feeling like i should be asleep
my feet have been dragging for this whole week
i've been seeing your face in all of my dreams
and all of my ghosts are catching up to me
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5. |
Day In//Day Out
01:46
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day in
day out
everything's the same
without you
day in
day out
once again
can't comprehend
why i'm still circling the drain
since way back when
you came and went
without a trace
your face engrained
inside my head
and when i slept
i would see you in my dreams
every night passed
and when i'd wake up
i don't care cuz...
day in
day out
everything's the same
without you
day in
day out
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6. |
Twice As Tall
03:34
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all around the cycle spins
and i'm missing all my friends
on a call that never ends
inside my head
while i rot away
do i feel like a real person today?
lately i've been thinking about changing my name
and how many times do you think it takes
to figure out when you're making a mistake?
how do you make the black clouds go away?
and how do i stop myself from hiding my face?
re-adjust myself accordingly
stand up straight and stitch the seams
don't lump me in
i'm not him
i've got a lot to say for it
sitting out
i feel it now
it's coming down
just wait for it
and now i'm nothing at all
i felt my spirit dissolve
i'll build it up
twice as tall
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7. |
Arms Bent Back
02:09
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oh
this is the last time
i reach out with my arms bent back
and i wanted to avoid
the repercussions of your heart attack
and i've got the feeling everything i say doesn't make sense
your silver song still stuck inside my head
tonight
in a certain light
your silhouette begins to say my name
despite no matter how it died
i always wanted things to stay the same
and there isn't much to do but pretend that you needed me
and i tried so hard to believe
now i'm filling in the space in between
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8. |
Safe
01:46
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i wanna be
what you want me to be
it's cuz i'm scared i believe
and that's not fair to you
now i'm walking backwards
over and after
lead me back home
back to you
oh my love
you're slipping away
and oh my love
can i stay to watch you fade?
i'm coming undone
from brown eyes in the sun
every breath in my lungs
has me closer to _______
i don't know where i am
or how did i get here?
i still need to learn to be alone
oh my love
you're slipping away
and oh my love
i long to hear you say
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9. |
From Far Away
01:38
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from far away
all the names and places
seem the same
just blurry shapes and faces
from far away
all the colors fade
i hear them calling my name
as if things were still the same
i can't go on
i'm stuck in place
behind these eyes
nightmares
always
disguise my lies
and hide my face
nothing is safe
from far away
all the names and places
seem the same
just blurry shapes and faces
from far away
all the colors fade
i hear them calling my name
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10. |
Time
01:47
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i'm going out like a car crash
somehow i knew that this is how it should be
i'm wearing trails into your carpet
the noise outside your house will lull me to sleep
and if i wanted something more
i'd sink right through the floor
but for now this is fine
i think i need more time
new cities and new apartments
i always knew that this is how it would be
i'm having trouble getting started
or maybe i'm just scared of watching it ending
and if i thought i was more
i'd flow right through the door
but for now this is fine
i just need some time
drawing up the maps
to discern fiction from fact
in a year so much has changed
the sidewalks feel their age
as we follow gridlocked lines
to the place we spent most nights
but for now this is fine
i'll just take my time
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collector New Jersey
ugly pop from south jersey
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