1. |
ghosts pt3
02:31
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every shadow has a face around here
and every word sounds wrong and insincere
i crossed the bridge for the last time
"where are your thoughts?" and "where were you last night?"
i can't help feeling like i should be asleep
my feet have been dragging for this whole week
i keep seeing your face in all of my dreams
and all of my ghosts are catching up to me
the bright lights in the parking lot
flicker and fade and suddenly shut off
it's like there's black clouds in the way
every night is a blackout in this place
i can't help feeling like i should be asleep
my feet have been dragging for this whole week
i keep seeing your face in all of my dreams
and all of my ghosts are catching up to me
if you don't mind i won't say a word tonight
i've been wondering for some time if you want me in your life
and no matter how hard i try i will always fall behind
in my isolated decline
i can't help feeling like i should be asleep
my feet have been dragging for this whole week
i keep seeing your face in all of my dreams
and all of my ghosts are catching up to me
through all of this smoke you know it's hard to see
and this is nowhere close to where i want to be
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2. |
time
01:43
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i'm going out like a car crash
somehow i knew that this is how it should be
i'm wearing trails into your carpet
the noise outside your house will lull me to sleep
and if i wanted something more
i'd sink right through the floor
but for now this is fine
i think i need more time
new cities and new apartments
i always knew that this is how it would be
i'm having trouble getting started
or maybe i'm just scared of watching it ending
and if i thought that i was more
i'd float right through the door
but for now this is fine
i just need some time
drawing up the maps
to discern fiction from fact
in a year so much has changed
the sidewalks feel their age
as we follow gridlocked lines
to the place we spent most nights
for now this is fine
i'll just take my time
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falling into old habits
like falling into you
i’m always driving on the same road
looking for something new
and i don’t have a lot of reasons
to tell a single truth
like how i’m really doing
or what i’m about to do
i’m watching tv with the sound off
i’m walking with myself
i’ve been falling out of contact
and nothing seems to help
i keep thinking it’ll get better
the farther i am away
but the further that i drifted
i still miss you every day
i got a call from my best friend
she said don’t worry it’s fine
she said everyone is drifting
and it happens all the time
i watched the snow as it came down
i watched branches bend and break
i watched the life i knew turn cold
and my confidence wither away
my steps were frozen on a wire
my words circled the drain
my hands they won’t stop shaking
my days all feel the same
i’m trying hard to move on
i know that you have
one day i’ll be good again
but i know how things never last
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4. |
spin
03:22
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there is nothing left to say
my words repeat against the fall anyway
spinning round
spin around
spinning round like you wanna
spin around just like you do inside my head
now that i don't know all that i need to know
now that i don't know all that i have to know
now that i don't know all that i want to know
now that i don't know
i'm not crossing over
i'll see no other side
where i'll be going
it's been too long
it's too far away
and i don't want to move too close
cuz i can't let you drown again
underneath the weight of having to pretend
it's something you need
all the while grinding your teeth
i'll go down and around again
cuz i've been here before
the paths cross and disconnect
it's all so formal
and we've been here before
like a distant architect
we saw it coming
where are we now?
i'm lost at sea with no hope to be found
and i'm going down
spinning round
and i crossed over
i see the other side
where i was standing
it's so familiar
but still so foreign
and i can't seem to get a grip on anything
anything at all
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my memory can't get it right
each story is a waste of time
details fleeing by the morning light
resigned to stay just out of sight
keep waking up around 6 am
from another dream with violent ends
coming or going it all depends
on whether or not i want to stay in bed
sometimes it gets too dark to see
that i don't always say what i mean
i thought by now i would be gone for good
cuz i stay away when i know that i should
i never know just what to do
especially when it comes to you
i know sometimes you feel it too
do i live in your heart or just passing through?
sometimes it gets too dark to see
that i don't always say what i mean
i thought by now i would be gone for good
cuz i stay away when i know that i should
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6. |
worthless
03:08
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poison
i am poison
i am everything you need
use me
like nicotine
to get you through the week
i've been trying to stay afloat when nothing seems to work
these days i spend most nights drinking to drive away the hurt
of a broken heart that's not worth saving
it's what i deserve
so when it all comes down you'll know who's going first
breathing
i'm barely breathing
i feel like i'm barely alive
hidden
i'll stay hidden
i'll stay out of your sight
wide awake at five AM
i guess i'll never sleep again
my room's too cold
i feel so old
i'll sit in the dark instead
there is no feeling
eyes on the ceiling
i guess it all depends
who will be around when this whole story ends
you're always on my mind
despite all the cracks in time
i know i'll never get it right
in this
worthless
life
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7. |
scarecrow
02:06
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there's a scarecrow in my head
i'll curse it on and on again
to certain gloom
in paper rooms
no escaping
sing your bitter song with me
i'll listen from underneath the street
if i could i wouldn't say
if it was still the same
i'm not saying
anything
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8. |
same
05:32
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i was watching out
i was keeping time
my head so full of doubt
failure by design
there was something the matter
with the way i dissolve
my immunity shattered
improving at a crawl
and i know you always wanted it to be different
but i just stayed the same
and you deserve better
than what i can offer
and you have a future
that i won't bother
and i won't ask of you again
to support my spine
sinking into cement
from the echoes in my mind
and i know you always wanted it to be different
but i just stayed the same
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9. |
from far away
03:02
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from far away
all the names and places
seem the same
just blurry shapes and faces
from far away
all the colors fade
i hear them calling my name
somewhere out there
i know you'll be
fighting silence
it's so empty
the nights
we try
so hard to see
anything at all
i can't go on
i'm stuck in place
behind these eyes
nightmares.
always.
disguise my lies
and hide my face
nothing
is safe
from far away
all the names and places
seem the same
just blurry shapes and faces
from far away
all the colors fade
i hear them calling my name
as if things were still the same
i see you in my room
when i can't sleep
floating
above me
from far away
all the names and places
seem the same
just blurry shapes and faces
from far away
all the colors fade
i hear them calling my name
as if things were still the same
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