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voices
02:30
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i've been lying to all my friends
running circles in my head
and this feeling, it never ends
the feeling that i am one of many regrets
and i don't think i should stay here
cultivating a growing list of fears
i'll never be what you need
i think it's time for me to leave
when i can't seem to speak
there's nothing left of me
and i thought i heard a slamming door
i thought i heard voices under the floor
some things just aren't meant to be
in this light, you can see right through me
all i wanted was to see what you see
eye for an eye, the world keeps turning
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haven
03:22
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i've done my best to climb out of my bed every day goes by too fast and all my life i felt like i had to hide behind a mask
and recently, i thought i'd seen through the haze
of the endless winding mazes
the crazed states of amazement
of the new depressive haven i've been in
and i spent all last night in a state of decay
after i sat around in circles all day
i'm sorry i just don't have that much to say
cause i've been running on empty
and i sense my words don't make sense anymore
and i lay there, pretending to sleep on the floor
i'll smoke myself stupid then rush myself out the door
i still don't have much to believe in
i still don't believe in myself
my head floods with past reminders of the day
and i don't know how to ask you to meet me halfway
but i'll give you my all
when you feel two feet tall
and i feel even smaller
cause i guess
that's just how it's supposed to be
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yr space
03:05
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there were so many nights when i wished i was alone
so many times left shaking
all the worst nights wishing i could stay home
to think about all the time i've wasted
spent a few summer nights in a blissful disposition
i remember the time we were standing in yr kitchen
and talking about when the world ends
we would stand on our heads
but i won't waste yr time
when yr not even mine
you can do anything you please
just don't forget about me
and suddenly all these things, they mean absolutely nothing
i was under the impression that it meant something
and i hoped too high again
and i let you down in the end
and i hope yr happy cause i'm not happening
i'll wait for the day that you won't come back again
to start a new life in the city
maybe you will see me
but i won't waste yr time
when yr not even mine
you can do anything you please
just don't forget about me
cause i want you to know
you were what felt like home
and i will lie awake
thinking of all my mistakes
but now i'll give you yr space
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pieces
03:25
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i'm often too afraid to face the choices i have made
and i'll watch from underneath as you slowly fade away
i've had my chance with chances, i've done my best not to break
but lately i've been trying to think of something good to say
but i can't say anything that you don't already know
and now i sit beside myself while i turn into a ghost
i don't even recognize the people i held so close
and now i know
i'm all alone
i realized in that moment, i'd ruined everything we worked for
it was in the way you stared out the window while i was staring at the floor
i tried hard to remember, i've tried even harder to forget
the room fell into pieces as you flew up overhead
but i can't do anything cause yr always on my mind
and you don't want to be around cause i'm always wasting time
when i think about the things i've done, it keeps me up at night
and now i know
yr on yr own
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5. |
around
02:37
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how can i smell the roses
when i'm pushing daisies?
how can i savor the moment
when everybody hates me?
how can i find out
what's going on?
i think i'm fine now
passed out on yr lawn
and i've been around this block a hundred times
i think i need a better place to hide
i've been home
every september
i'll tear myself in two
before i reach december
before you go
just remember
i was there for you then
but i can't be forever
and i've been around these streets for all my life
i'll always feel like i've been left behind
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needless
03:22
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woke up the floor today
couldn't figure out how to stay away
when every day is a masquerade
and everyone is playing the game
took four whole years to figure out
i'm the only one who's still around
and i just want you close to me
but yr moving away in the backseat
well i guess that's what you get for telling the truth
and i think of that when i think of you
thought about you on the ride home
and how i'm afraid to let you go
and while you find yr brand new life
i hope you think of us from time to time
needless to say, i needed this
read this to me when i cave in
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undone
05:22
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i first saw yr light from above the trees
on shaky hands and broken feet
i could feel you sitting next to me
in the passenger seat
and yr coming undone
and i'm coming undone
oh what have we done
and then things got just a little bit brighter
and then things got just a little bit brighter
and i can't help leaping into the fire
and i can't help getting a little higher tonight
maybe things are exactly as they seem
maybe things are exactly the way they should be
so many problems, maybe you should solve them
cause recently i've found it harder to breath
and i'm coming undone
and yr coming undone
oh what have we done
and then things got just a little bit brighter
and then things got just a little bit brighter
and i can't help sleeping a little lighter
and i can't help seeming a little tired tonight
and my heart beats fast whenever i think of you
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8. |
ghosts pt1+pt2
03:38
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i'm alive but only in appearance
i tried to say something worth hearing
i relied on being the one who was forgiving
disguise the person i am becoming
and i'm not sure
why i can't relate
to anything you have to say
i'm afraid of drowning out the moment
ashamed of promises i've broken
decay with the words unspoken
remain with the fate that i've chosen
and i'm not sure
why i have to stay
you seemed so far away
saw it from a distance
soon it had engulfed my vision
and i started to believe in yr ghostly apparition
and i started making progress
into a new dimension
the broken lensed perspective faded into new frustration
and i started losing focus, caught off my medication
the same routine we hated became the complication
and it can't hold
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close
04:30
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with beauty comes distraction
paired with a misconception
that appearances matter more than a soul
and i know nothings perfect
but really is it worth it
to stand out in the rain on yr own
saying how can this get any worse?
cause i've been to the other side
i've seen the light vanish from yr eyes
i'm sorry, it's just i have a problem communicating
tear the blinds down from the wall
write yr name on a bathroom stall
whatever makes you happy, keep it going, keep it close
cause i know everyone
is only looking out for number one
i've been picking up the pieces
while maintaining steady breathing
i've been learning to love the life that i lead
i wished i could have handled
being an example
but i guess the time wasn't right for me
and i said how can this get any worse?
cause i've been on the other side
i've seen the light vanish from yr eyes
i'm sorry, it's just i have a problem communicating
and all my friends are so far away
but at least i heard from them today
wherever you are going, please remember keep me close
cause now i know
i can't do this alone
and how many chances will it take
for me to be able to stand up straight
stand up straight today
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10. |
around (demo)
01:36
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11. |
close (demo)
03:04
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12. |
undone (demo)
04:48
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13. |
yr space (demo)
03:01
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14. |
pieces (demo)
02:13
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collector New Jersey
ugly pop from south jersey
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